With thee dreams I be sad...

So there I was thinking, yah for help....everyone telling me don't stress, don't worry about how to pay for the wedding we will help. Problem is....that is easier said than done. So the reality of it all...it is just me and him and we are the ones paying for it all. This is fine and all, but it gets under my skin when someone says they can do something so important and something that plays a big factor in setting a date and time only to say well I said this but I didn’t really mean it. So here we are less than a year and completely unprepared or ready to have a wedding and it will take a miracle or a bank robbery to have a wedding on a date we set and we already booked some things.... I was upset. I was so upset and annoyed because I don't like when people make big promises that they know they can't keep. But it is all water under the bridge...I am onto plan B, C, D, F....whatever plan ...I've stop planning for the wedding I was planning for and now I feel like since I was the only one who did the hard work of researching venues, places with deals and ideals only to know that a year out those who wanted to help would flake...puts me in lazy mode. Not to say that I was expecting people to help, in the beginning I wasn't and I knew that...but I don't like when people don't expect me to be less shallow than the average girl and think if they tell me things it helps me. I wouldn't have like them or loved them less because they couldn't contribute to what we wanted as a wedding. But I wish they would learn honesty of being humble and putting their pride behind them enough to say, "if we could help out we will be we can't too much" hell...I am very appreciative if they said here is 50 dollars and that is all we can contribute. I mean at least I am not thinking... great, I have help, only to be told when I need it that it will happen but who knows how much or when it will happen.

So with no financial help whatsoever, the wedding my man keeps fighting me tooth and nails on as he wants this and this unrealistic thing for our day just won't happen. We are on a very limited budget and I am okay with that, sometimes I wish he would put his pride away and be okay with that as well. He thinks I was a $5000 dollar dress, when I don't. He thinks we need a 5 course meal and I hate 5 course meals, I rather have cocktail hour and cocktail hour only...but it is a team effort so I can't always get what I want. But at the same time, we can't afford what he wants...what am I too do???


I plan on blogging a little later...so plan b, c, d, and f will be dicussed soon... gggrrrr.