Im only handing out bubble gum and ass whoopings, and I fresh out of bubble gum tonight.

So today I go to my inbox to read some mail from someone on my friend list...

HEY J, FROM A FRIEND TO A FRIEND, YOUR HAIR BEING ALL OVER YOUR HEAD ISNT CUTE, LOL PLEASE JUST GO AND COMB YOUR HAIR, DONT TAKE THAT THE WRONG WAY

(WTF...which way am I suppose to take that comment??? Maybe I'm just over reacting...*but if I feel disprected then that should be respected..cause that is right...I'm grown - Truth Hurts from the song Grown*)

Now this message came from a guy whom I have more of a personal type of "more than just friends" relationship with...like more of Buddy type of relationship (you know, we've seen each other naked, done a few things woke up beside each other cuddling...we've talked about moving closer to each other, getting closer to each other..but that was the past)...

So I was upset as now I've never commented on his unhealty eating habits as a friend...like eating high calorie dinners at 9:00 pm every night. I've never said anything about his need to go around posing his whole life trying to impress others, while I'm the type of girl who like to love myself and careless about how others see me these days unless your family.

But damn, disrespect my hair choice, that ain't right.

Little does he know, he doesn't know yours truly too well...5 years ago, quiet inscure me would have just brushed this off...but I'm grown...I've posted pictures of my face busted...

I've insulted co-workers...

what he don't think I'll get rawdy with him...

Anyways... I started a blog to post my life, the good, the bad, and the things that I fear or love...pretty much everything without hiding anything. Yeah I was scared when I first started blogging, I let people see a rare part of me, but I've loved it....my grumpy side, my goofy side and I plan on sharing everything as truthful as I can be. I was really feeling this guy, had a crush on him until he said that... even express to him I was feeling him, we've had our ups and downs with each other, as sometimes he'd want more from me when I wasn't ready and vice versa...but to take it there showed me he is so shallow.

I've had guys who've felt I was beautiful in the morning after we've awoke to each other with my hair all on my face, even made me feel sexy when I wasn't feeling that way.

I've had a guy still be crazy about me after I'd throw up during sex,....(now that is embarrassing) but we still got along well. while even guys from my past that I've dated, I can run into today and they dig the hair, just like they liked it when it was long and permed ....

or short and blonde.

I've never met a man who was that shallow where he was only digging me because of a certain hairstyle as this person has made hints and made it clear to me,...I'd be prettier if I permed my hair again and let it grow out long.

One, my hair is longer than the inch I first cut it...

but I like it as it is in an afro...

it won't change today or tomorrow or 10 years from now....I might braid it, twist it, throw on a wig every now and then.

(that is me with a wig on of course)

I might spend a day in chairs getting it pressed, but at the end of the night.... if I'm sweating, I want my hair to be kinky, natural and free like my personality.

With that being said...remember this is my life I've chose to share with the world...as my friends I like to include those in each part of my life in the stories I share with the world about me... I'll mention names every now and then...as a friend here is a warning...do good by me and I'll brag to the world...upset me and I'm gonna make it rain...

why...

Cause I'm grown....lmao

peace

Januar

(I promsied I used this nickname giving by the man I'll never meet beside hearing his voice...unless it is at a wedding and I'm seated next to Adam)

Show the winter some respect, it don't like yo attitude!!!!

So I know I've been m.i.a.....

But I'm trying to get back on the ball,

Between school and work and whatnot, things can get a little crazy at times. Still I get to go out every now and then....last night happen to be one of those nights.

In Denver the whether has been in the 10 degrees area...Yeah we've been freezing our butts off, so yesterday when it got up to 40 degrees, it felt good. Only problem is, chicks seem to mistake a little sun for the summer...what is up with that?

What you think just because the sun come out that winter ain't alive and kicking...it is cold and currently the snow is running the show ladies. I just have one thing to say...

I don't think the winter likes yo attitude...Show the winter some respect!!! (apperently I'm aware most of you won't understand this quote unless you've seen the movie Screwed... by the way you can get that movie at walmart for cheap in the 2 for 11)

But really, women in summer clothes while there is a foot of snow on the ground...do you think you're big time to the point that you don't have to follow winter's rules. You think jack frost won't bite yo ass? I walked out the house with two shirts on and was still freezing so I know you have to be cold in your spaghetti string summer dress over pants...and the fact that your flimsy shirt isn't even cute,...it was on sale for 4.99 for a reason at charlotte russe, because it belongs in the summer, save it for june...

and when the sun comes out don't be quick to put on those damn furry boots you caught on sale at macy in july...tree-rat fur should not be worn around ankles before october and after march... (well it should never be worn but if you must wear it...then keep it in the cold months)....

cause when summer comes, you need to give it the same respect you gave winter...

now start showing the winter some respect and buy a cute sweather or nice jacket and scarf with some cute boots (minus the rat tree fur around the ankles)...believe me...even if you don't think it is possible...you can still look sexy and cute with full warm comfortable clothes on.

peace
Januari

Kokology (puzzle number 2)

The Japanese game of self discovery...

A Night at the Symphony:

There's is something special about a night at the symphony, a feel of expectation and pleasure...

Imagine being able to take a place on the stage among the other musicians, a chance to perform at your best.

If you could join the orchestra, what instrument do you see yourself playing?

1.Violin

2. String Bass

3. Trumpet

4. Flute

***my answer*** I've always like String Bass, it such a huge instrument to take on and I like the deep tone it brings... if I was on stage and knew how to play one, I for sure be up on that String Bass.

The key to the symphony...the answers to each choice. (remember to highlight the below portion to get the answers)

have fun....

Musical instruments are symbolic of members of the opposite sex. The pairing of you and the instrument show how what you chose gives insight to what you think of as your strongest lovemaking technique.

1. Violin: The violin demands sensitive fingerwork and a gentle touch with the bow to draw forth music from taut strings. You see yourself as having the same awareness and skill in locating and playing upon your partners' most sensitive points. There is a sense of adventure in the way your hands can create such beautiful music by running over familiar notes.

2.String bass: There's a feeling of power gotten from taking position behind an enormous bass and making it call out in a tremendous moan. In love, your skill rests in the ability to bend your partners to your will while having complete control and driving them onward to pleasure they never felt they could have experience. You never ask permission, still your dominating personality make you so irresistible.

3.Trumpet: It is safe to say that your mouth is your strongest weapon in your arsenal. Whether it is whispering in you partner's ear or exploring them with your lips, you have all the characteristics of the oral personality.

4.Flute: The flute demands incredible patience from those who want to master it. You show the same care and patience in the way you wear down partners with your persistence, diligence and stamina. Your lovers are often taken off guard when what they thought would be a brief recital quickly develops into a full concerto in six movements.

peace and sunshine

Januari

(I'm on an anti-random for the week...but I will resume the random-ness after the 7th)

oh yeah....hmmm...yeah ...I have to agree...I think I like to be in control so I guess it is accurate...strangely. Do you agree with your choice?

Kokology is a Japanese psychological quiz game, the key is to answer simple normal question as truthful as possible. These question based on your answer are suppose to give you insight to something about yourself more personal.... kind of like a self-discovery. Even if you don't believe it to be true, it is still fun to try a question or two and see if you agree or learn something new, or enjoy just doing it for fun.

I wanted to blog today ...but something lighthearted so...this is it.... I have a few Kokology question that I will post over the next couple of days,... (in order to find out what your answers reveal about you ...or if your curious to see what my answers reveal about me...high light the section below each question to see the meaning.)

Now I answer my question truthfully and this is my first time seeing any of the questions and answers I post...hopefully you do the same, answer first and reveal later....and share with a comment, as we all want to know what you believe....


Have fun.


question number 1: Planting the seeds

The human spirit loves a challenge. This desire to overcome may be the secret to our success as a species......
You are an eminent scientist who has been working to develop a new species of a plant... (lets name it januari jr night blooms *or at least that's what I'd name my plant*...ha ha) ...anyways, you've spent years in your lab on experiments and now your efforts have begun to show results. As the ultimate test of your creation, you plant 100 seeds of the new strain in an inhospitable desert location.

How many of those 100 seed sprout? (Give a number from 0 to 100.)

I would say that at least 87 out of my 100 januari jr. night blooms would survive in a desert *I wonder if that is a good or bad thing....I don't care, I think I'd make a tough flower just like the owner, but really you can't win them all so 87 is a good number*

Highlight the below section for the answer....



The number you gave as an answer correlates to your self-confidence level. In the story the scientist stands for feeling of confidence and even pride. The desert represent a test and feeling of doubt. Peole who answer with high number have high cofidence levels. While those with lower numbers feel the challenge to great and have lower self-confidence.

scale:
99-100: You're past self-cofidence, mater of fact more likely vain. It is good to believe in yourself, but you tend to dismiss the challenges of the rest of the world. Don't forget that one of the truest signs of strength is accepting one's own weakness.
81-98: You have cofidence in yourself but it doesn't come across as arrogance. People around you feel it as a sense of cool certanity, making you a natural leader.
61-80: You're best described as cautious optimist, you hope for the best but prepare for the worst. That is what keeps you grounded when others lose their heads in the clouds.
41-60: Your self-confidence is in the average range, your not cocky or unsure of yourself. You could be still finding out about yourself or you might just have a healty respect for what life brings you. But if you believe in yourself, other will too.
21-40: You don't doubt yourself but you ten to overestimate the challenges in front of you. You have a tendency to excuse this as a simple resignation to the facts. While the way you sometimes look down on yourself affects the way other people see you, the only way other will trust in you is if you begin to trust in yourself.
1-20: Being humble is a honest quality but you need to focus on developing a better sense of your own value. There's nothing wrong with believing you can achieve great things, and with a little hard work you can. You are the person holding yourself back.
0: What seems like a lack of confidence is actually a sign of perfectionist pride. Your not comfortable with the thought of being wrong or even making a mistake so you pretend that everything is too hard. If you never learn to face those fears, you may trick everyone else into thinking you're just a ne'er-do-well, while you know that you've never tried to begin with.



Well hope you have enjoyed...until next time

Peace and soul power.

J.J.

(no random today, my nose still has a boo boo)

Your face is cracked and on the ground.

So I hope every is well and your new year was brought in right... Mines was a long night and lets just say even though a lot of things sucked I'm happy to survive yet another year.

So new years eve my fam decided to go to the Thuggets game, I enjoyed the game, we had club level seats and the view was beautiful. Only thing was the Thuggets lost in the last minutes of the game, so that sucked. It was great to see A.I. in action though, just means I can't wait for Melo to make it back on the court I will be back to see those two play together. Another thing though is I was mad cuz I had invited a date (my not-boyfriend) and he stood me up... now I wouldn't have cared so much but who in the hell passes up a $62 dollar ticket? I was so mad because I had talk to him the day before and he could have told me that day he wasn't coming, or even when I called him 3 hours before the game his punk ass could have told me then as I could have found someome to give the ticket to three hours before the game. So I had a extra ticket that went to waste...but I just took it as I'll never offer him anything free again.

So two of my favorite teams lost the Thuggets and the Broncos... so that was a bummer, especially since that lost takes the Broncos out of the playoffs.

Any how so after the Thuggets game we endend up going to Jazz at Jacks to see Future Jazz Project play. It was great and we had fun, the music was nice and they had free food so ya know that was a plus. Any how this new years eve came with the good...

Club seats at the game, Listening to good music to bring in the new year, being with family to bring in the new year, a couple of more days til my birthday...

but sadly it also came with the bad...

this morning I'm sure I wasn't the only one to cry after hearing the news of Darrent Williams (broncos conerback) being killed at 2 am today. R.I.P pretty boy with the golden smile and that southern accent... I will miss you as I'm sure others will too... 9.27.1982 - 1.1.2007

it is a shame how pettiness and little boys with guns can take aways something precious like a life and not think twice about it before they pull out a gun.

but this is a new year so we must keep moving.

and last but not least ....the strange and things that can't be made up...

So last night after getting home I admit I was past tispy I was drunk. Any how I was getting along just fine, I was able to make it down the dangerous step to the basement. I was able to take off my shoes and coat and set down my purse. I was thinking how things were going great when all of a sudden I decide to change into my jamas for bed when there I am in the dark like a silly child walking and dressing. I felt that I know what the basement looks like so I can do this in the dark...reminded myself to avoid the chair... only problem is I didn't do such a good job at avoiding the chair. So halfway through dressing with my arms being wrapped up in clothes I tripped over the chair. Since my arms weren't there the only thing to break my fall was my face and yes it was a long fall. I'm thankful I didn't snap my neck or anything but I thought I got a little face bruise. I got up and continue to get dress and went to sleep. Except durning the night I had a potty break and went to the bathroom, I wasn't gonna click on the light but silly me felt like I should be daring and do it... so when I get up to wash my hands and look up I was shocked to find that my fall was more than just a fall... that chair kicked my ass. I got a rug burn on my face,a bruised nose (which I think might be broken, hurts like hell) and a busted lip just to name a few of the marks. But what type of person would I be if I didn't take pictures...so yup... my face is cracked and on the ground,...looks like I've had a brick in my face. But I still look good with the marks (it just certifieds I'm a cutie cuz who could look busted and still be cute...lol I'm getting full of myself here.)...beside the marks just add to my toughness and street cred... (at least I think ...lol)... I must admit I'm a mess though and wish someone could kiss my boo boos for me, but I'll survive.

my fam says they are gonna report my spousal abuse, and they are not buying my chair story (well they are)...but they keep teasing me about being beat up. I probably should have got some head-on to apply directly to the forehead. But neosporian will do just fine.

peace and be safe

(I know I will pratice less tripping over objects and self-spousal abuse)

hardcore jan (I figured with the face I can now claim hardcore-ism)

random fact #2007: I figure for 2007 first resolution is to no longer do clubs period..not even the exceptions for friend birthdays...its just way to dangerous with ignorant people...(I'm upset about what happen this morning to Williams after the club...I'll stick to my sushi bars and lounges and pool halls.)