I like your dress, wait did I say dress? I meant to say shirt.

The niece and nephew are doing fine,.... I think he likes me a lot, or it could have been the black and white polkadot shirt I was wearing since in the first months babies respond to things that are the color black and white.(Oh well to make myself feel good we'll say he's already crazy about me.)

Saturday I spent the day with my sister, me and my other sister stayed the night so we could help her with the baby.

So friday night was fun, we went to DC10 a club downtown that we've never been to. It was nice, the club is design like a first class of an airplane so it is a different look. Everyone was looking very hot and sexy, we had the v.i.p area, so it was a bunch of beautiful black girls having a good time together. We had a few guys there like my brothers and a few girls brought their boyfriends but nonetheless we made the club hype that night and I can pretty much say everyone got a little plastered that night, between the bottles of champange and the shots and the rum we were all toasted.

Thursday we ended up going out for a little while at Jazz at Jacks downtown on the mall. So Future Jazz Project was playing there. Now I have never been in Jazz at Jacks, it was pretty mellow and laid back I like how it is designed.... plus they have a drink called mudslide margarita., it was very good as ya know I loves me some chocolate. Now I don't mind FJP and I've attended a few of their performances,... but Thursday.... the rapper in the group was on stage with this big shirt on. See he is normally a big guy, he is tall and a little thick, (I like guys like that) ...only problem though was his shirt,...it was so long it almost came to his knees. Now that drives me crazy, if there is one thing I notice on a man other than shoes and a good lineup from the barber is his clothes and the way they fit. I don't like when clothes are way too small or clothes that are way too big. I can't stand that on men or women, but more on men then women. So I was just bother by his shirt, why must a shirt be that long. I was watching him and thinking, you know if he put a cute belt around the waist area of that shirt it would make a cute dress. Trust me if he would have removed his pants and added a belt, it would have so been a dress for sure, then all he would have been missing was some cute heels and a little make-up.

So tip of the day: Men don't wear shirts big enough to be dresses, (how do you tell if a shirt can pass for a dress? simple) if the arms of shirt pass your elbows, or if they end between your elbows and wrist and it is naturally a short sleeve shirt...yeah we have a problem,...your shirt is way too long. If it comes to your mid-thigh or almost to your knees...yeah we have a problem...your shirt is way too long.


Peace and gumby hair cuts... ( when is the gumby and the box gonna make a comeback in mens hair fashion along with those rat-tails... lets pray that those will never resurface again...)



Random fact #2000: I am not a Mariah Carey fan, I've never liked her and the older she gets and the younger she dresses drives me crazy...maybe if she acted grown up I like her a little bit.....plus I've never like Boys to Men except for the first cd they came out with (they just seem so dorky to me...) so you probably know that the song One Sweet Day is a song that I was never too thrilled about and honeslty I thought the song sucked...but true story, when my cousin died they sung that song One Sweet Day at the funeral...and ever since then I thought that was a beautiful song (funny how your thoughts on thing can change depending on what memories you have with those things, like smells that ex's use to wear that you love and now hate...but that is for another topic another day...anyways) .... it is the only song by either Mariah Carey or Boys to Men that I'll agree to listen to now. So when I was 16 I had always wanted that song on cd but I refused to support any of their music with my dollars, so one day I was crying sad that day and was thinking about my cousin and that song and wishing I had the song to play and hear....I just happen to walk outside in the back yard and we had these trash cans, right there on top of the trash can was a cd case, I looked at it and it was Mariah Carey's cd single for her song One Sweet Day...and the case wasn't cracked and the cd was inside in perfect condition..now I don't know who threw the cd away or how it ended up in our backyard,...but it was freaky that it appeared and I did take it cause I do believe it was put there for me....but that brings me to my random fact of me believing in angels and supernatural things cause how wierd and often is it, that something like that happens? You never know....

random fact # 5754: My favorite smells for women perfume and oils are coconut, citrus, woody, or clean smells. Like I love the new bath and body works Exotic Coconut, I love my oil Black Coconut, and Chinese Musk (more of a citrus smell), and I love Black Cashmere by Donna Karen (for the wood type of smell)....


Also I want to give a little shout out and thank you to James Scott for the AIDS Walk Donation... ( I guess that means everyone else who didn't give me money your not as cool as James *at least when it comes to giving money..but I luv ya all just the same*)


random fact # 5754: My favorite smells for women perfume and oils are coconut, citrus, woody, or clean smells. Like I love the new bath and body works Exotic Coconut, I love my oil Black Coconut, and Chinese Musk (more of a citrus smell), and I love Black Cashmere by Donna Karen (for the wood type of smell)....


Also I want to give a little shout out and thank you to James Scott for the AIDS Walk Donation... ( I guess that means everyone else who didn't give me money your not as cool as James *at least when it comes to giving money..but I luv ya all just the same*)

I just had to have some fun today...still sick though..

I'm still sick....and my throat is killing me...but I just couldn't pass up doing this and I liked it.... much needed fun...

So I was spending time on Kornika.com....and noticed she done a blog.... "Get to Know Kornika through Pictures (A Lot of 'Em)" - the blog was about her pictures and the celebrities that she could resemble...it looked so fun I had to try it....

now take note, I don't belive this in any way and I'm sure all will agree, it was just for fun.




But really I do kind of resemble these people if you squint your eyes while the wind is blowing and sun is going down and you tilt your head 60 degrees to the right while standing 50 ft away, then oh yeah I do look like I could be the cousin/sister/twin of beyonce, tyra, nia, oprah and the other faces...




or maybe it's just www.myheritage.com's imagination...cause it sure ain't mines...Yours truly looks like no one..who are these people who came up with picture matches and what drugs might these people be on and how can I get some?



...just cause we have the same hair style, or just because from a different angle our noses, maybe our eyes may look a lil similar but not that much...doesn't make us 60% almost twins...damn fools...




okay since I am silly I just had to see what they would say about my old dog....funny notice how me and him both resemble natalie imbruglia... here is the dog (in the front), natalie is in the far back for those of you confused on which one is the dog and which ones are the people whom resemble the dog...lol (low blow, sorry couldn't pass it up)...

crazy but there are actual people who they think look like dogs...funny

and of course here is me with natalie

oh yeah.....other note worthy people I seem to look like... Yaphet Kotto, Bow Wow, Chris Tucker...yep it doesn't get any better than that...if you are bored like I was maybe you should try your luck.....lmao...

My Heritage

old poetry

The Yin, The Yang, & everything in between


Eternity seems impossible to reach,
dreamed the imperfect speech,
a loop hole in how to say
I love you
secretly,
without giving any fear of the knowing,
my skin glowing,
tells the tale of a farewell heart
re-birth for new beginnings
inside strong arms.
pre-warnings
inner voices speaks of
some soul to keep,
the yin of everything
pulls the force a little more deep.
good reinforcement, conditioned thru sleep,
Pavlov’s laws
greets positive ness
in the sound of breath
closed eyes, unseen is
the yang in between
we must come softly fused
puzzled pieces fitted with ease.
plan b put into action,
we move on to step two.
and I wonder if its noticed
how I hold air in for a sec.
listen quietly to catch
the rhythm of breathing patterns.
begin to initiate the process of science
remembering the rules,
for every action is a opposite re-action.
so I exhale when you inhale
I inhale, you exhale
our hands must lock,
body fits snug,
you wrap perfect around hips
better than cushion imprints,
left cold inside favorite chairs.
sitting entwined, co-dependant
as stick shifts
break and clutch
each touch, we gear up another speed,
shifts into
the perfect union of two.
So I exhale yin when you inhale yang
I inhale yang, you exhale yin
practices of balance
makes the possible reality
infinity
& everything in between.



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Love like Foreign Lands

We are Castaways
on an island made for two.
With time the customs become familiar.
Your body I study like a map.
There is a lake under your right eye,
mountains near your ear.
We must be lost living in or near the rainforest
at the base of your neck.
(my favorite place to rest.)
We've journeyed here months ago,
since wandering around searching for oasis
in the desert at your lower back.
Who knew that we'd find peace near your chest.
I've become pretty acquainted with this land of yours,
the rich brown finely texture soil, I could travel
with my eyes closed at night
and still find my way home.
Now I've learn to love this place,
Even if the area and the language of the natives is new.
Maybe within years I can obtain citizenship.
Our childeren will be born. We'll be side by side.
wanting and sitting.
Like how the tree and stone sit together.
waiting to do to each other
what the stone does for the tree
and the tree for the stone.

I like to return this jacket, there seems to be a whole lot of coat around my furry hood.

So lately we (me and my sis) have been winter/fall coat shopping. Now we have coats, we have plenty of coats, but we want more coats as you can never have too much of (shoes, coats, jeans...etc) Only problem is coat shopping sucks these days. I think every where we looked the only coats being made for women that look halfway decent possess a fur hood. Now I have nothing against a fur hood, but its like the 15 year old girl protocol. I already look 13 somedays so why would I want to dress like a 13 year old. I don't so therefore, I have yet to seek out the perfect coats since they all have fur hoods. What type of cruel ideal is it to put fur on everything? Do these people not understand we all don't want fake fur in our faces as we shovel our walks (fake fur that will soon irrate the skin and give me acne...I avoided acne in high school I don't think I'm trying to walk around with pimples now).....

Speaking of shoveling...I know winter is coming up soon I think I'm gonna be in trouble if I don't find somebody to shovel this sidewalk for me...Its gonna suck having to do it myself somedays, I'll have to get up early just to shovel so I won't break my neck later...yeah, this yard work stuff is looking more and more overrated each day.

Top Model... y'all know ya watch it...I actually started my blog because of top model *another fall another diva season*. I wanted to meet people to talk to, who liked the show as much as I do since my co-workers don't watch it...So last year around this time I started my blog...funny because I rarely talk about top model on here. I usually discuss the top model drama with my mamma, sistahs an 'em....As for this new group...lets see my favorites fierce five girls:...

I love the Indian girl Anchal, her look is beautiful,

A J. if only she could have a little more confidence in herself.

Eugena - I love chocolate girls, ...

CariDee - I just like her, what can I say...

I was really digging Monique until she pull the whole bed scene with spilling the water on it, now she is semi okay to me... I was like those other girls are crazy cause I wouldn't have let it happen that way, you take my bed and decide it's yours just doesn't work with me. If I was in Eugena position, I would have asked Monique if she'd perfer the right or left side of the bed, cause we would have both been sleeping on that bitch that night and every other night. I probably would have let her know that I hope she don't mind breast in her back as sometimes I sleeps a little wild....crazy girls... I have a feeling this group is a little vicious...But nonetheless I can't wait for next's week episode, my favorite show is always the makeover one since the suspense of whos getting what done to what hair and which girls will cry, is something I just can't miss. I also like it when Ms. J. shows the girls how to walk, gotta love the walk-offs as they are entertaining, just trying to watch the girls develop their own strut.

So I went to the high school on Wed. for My Girl...man can she talk my ear off...before, when we first met, she would just be quiet and kind of say one or two things, but I think she has now become familiar enough with me to where she just runs with it...talk talk talk, I never knew someone could talk that much...but I'm loving it, to have someone younger feel that comfortable around me, its crazy though cause I know one day I might have to talk to her about sex if she ever brings it up in a conversation...and I want her to be able to ask me about things like that but,...yeah My Girl and sex, what? y'all know kids grow up fast these day but all we can do is help them decide on what is best....but I'm thinkin since she doesn't really have any hobbies that maybe I could look into singing or dancing and probably acting for her, cause honeslty..she would make a great actress as she can play a role tuff and act out any scene from the stories she tells me about her family...Plus she does like to dance and sing...I think baby girl just needs to find her own voice different from what she sees around her in the neighborhood she lives in and she'll be alright. But I do enjoy my Wed. with her, it kind of makes the weekdays easier as I have something to look forward to in the middle of my week.

well it is late and I gotta get up in 4 hours (yeah..I live off of 4 hours of sleep I gotta work on that)

peace & Hey Hey Hey - I wish I was watching "What's Happening" right now

Enero

oh is anyone beside me excited about "The Office" - I love that show....

random fact #3 - tv shows I can't miss. Medium, Top Model, The Office, Scrubs and Girlfriends...everything else I don't mind if I see it or not....****aslo notice there are no cable shows...why? #1 I don't have cable and I refuse to pay comcast or qwest $80 dollars a month just to watch t.v. on my ass eating food and getting high blood pressure. No cable means I'm more likely to go work out after work. But don't get me wrong, if anybody knows a friend, who has a friend, that has watched the "Cable Guy" one time to many and wants to give me free cable..just say the word....I like cheap things and cheap cable at a one time offer is included...as I'm not one to get excited on paying a cable bill monthly like it is child support...thats murder, damn cable company.

The phone love triangle update.

I meant to blog about this on sunday night but I had to take an online test in one of my classes. grrr...

well enough of that, I would like to say I am happy today because I do have my phone back, with that being said today will be a busy day. I gotta give my current phone the "it's not you it's me" speech, plus propose to my new phone.. I think I'll start with a good ol jerry magurie classic of "you had me at hello", move onto a "you complete me" speech.. you know the good stuff...and I'm guessing my dvd player is probably gonna want some quality time, so when I get home while I program and set my phone just the way I like it, I'll have to prove to my dvd that I enjoy its company by watching a movie. Oh and we are register at verzion wireless for those of you touched by such a sad, pathetic and crazy love story. With that being said, it is safe to say I really need a relationship quick since I started to form meaningful bonds with my phone. Speaking of phones...has anybody ever went into a cricket store... I refuse to use cricket as my phone provider and the fact that I walk into the store with my dad so he could get one confirmed my reason. Last thrusday we walk into the cricket store in aurora... for a second there I thought I was in the dmv or the welfare office, not to knock either place but there were lots of people sitting in chairs with 5 babies crying and they looked as if they were there for long periods of time, like hours perhaps. The lady at the door asked us if we would like a number, I think we were 2000068993123 or something like that and she said it would take 30 mins to an hour which we all know means it will take much longer. We just turned back around and decided that maybe another day would early in the morning right when they open would be the best time to arrive, sort of like in the dmv.

alright darlings...its time for my lunch so....

peace and no I'm not going to each chicken... (also I'm not finish with my blog marathon today so if you feel like reading more..just wait 30 more mins...lol...I got some catching up to do)

Jan

random fact ..2000068993123 - :) I'm a vegetarian, so there is no way I'm gonna eat chicken for lunch today, I've been that way for five years. I think one thing I like a lot about being a vegetarian is making different foods, for example tofu ribs,... I make them pretty darn good, cause my momma will eat them and my momma eating habits are usually if it isn't meat it ain't going in her mouth. But she has started to eat the meatless foods I make which means they can't be that bad.

If it ain't a dolla, it ain't worth buyin

So this weekend I went on the perfect hunt for some cute pants, sadly I didn't see anything I liked a whole lot or any pairs that were worth spending money on. I think my cheapness level has hit an all time frugal low as now days as I hate buying anything over $5 dollars...lol

Well its not that I hate to buy expensive things but I hate buying poorly constructed things for a lot of money. Like if the stitching is not durable and the fabric feels as if it isn't well put together I don't want to spend a lot of money on it. I want high quality for a high price. Only problem is now days so many people are willing to pay for something cheaply made as long as it has a designer name on it or because it comes from a certain store that a lot of times it hard to find something of good quality for a good price. So my shopping experience was unsuccessful at finding what I wanted, but I did find a lot of cute head bands, I've been looking for head bands to snazzle dazzle up my afro.

Now not only while looking for pants did I come up without a cute pair but I was also looking for a wallet, but nothing I liked I seen...so I was thinking since I'm not really into wallets, shouldn't I just pay a dollar for it? It's crazy after hanging out with my family and shopping with them I have now found the joys of the dollar tree. Now before I'd laugh at anybody shopping in the dollar tree but thanks to my family I've come to realize the dollar tree has every useless thing you don't need and never had but think you need as soon as you see it.

But also I'm amaze at what you can find in a dollar tree. Like for example I'm obsessed with basket, wood baskets, wire baskets, etc....I love to buy basket to put things inside and I'm always wondering what random possessions of mines are in need of a container at some point in time...(that also reminds me that maybe I should get a basket for my remote control, doesn't really need one but I think it will look so cute in a basket). Now the dollar tree has lots of basket and they are all for a dollar. Do you know that me in the dollar tree buying basket for a dollar puts me in basket heaven, and once I'm in basket heaven I become a basket case..its quite scary.

But as much as I love a good dollar deal...when does it get out of control...well some things should not be brought for a dollar... Yeah I seen some crazy things at the dollar tree. So here is my list of things I never knew the dollar tree sold.

1. sexy panties ( yup cute little lace thongs for a dollar...but I'm not hating on dollar panties especially sexy ones, if they have my size I'm gettin em...)
2.pregnancy test (oh yeah this is true, hard to believe but true, so next time you meet a woman who says she is pregnant but isn't or vice versa you know where she got her result from...do you really think for a dollar you can get an accurate result? I wouldn't bet my dollar on it...I'll leave the dollar test to the other girls, if I'm ever in need to find out an answer on if I'm gonna have to find out a certain somebodies social I'll trust an ept or sumthin like a doctor... )
3.condoms (this is why your pregnant now and not knowing it..because not only did you by a pregnancy test that says negative when your late 4 months from the dollar tree but you got condoms from there that weren't protecting you from anything but air...you must have not known that planned parenthood gives out free condoms and that you have a better chance of the condoms actually working more than you do with those dollar joints - truthfully this whole dilemma could have been avoided if you wouldn't have brought those sexy panties)

damn sexy panties for a dollar...maybe I'll just skip on those or else I might have to buy number 2 and 3. ....j/k ...lmao

well you never know what you can get for a dollar. Some things you might want to buy, like paper or a cheap pair of socks after it starts to rain and the pair your wearing gets all wet. Some things you'll be a fool for buying like shampoo or phony ponytails...putting a dollar weave in your tresses is not sexy.

Regardless if you need something but wanna be cheap about it, check out the dollar tree but remember, not everything should be brought for a dollar. Happy frugal dolla shopping, remember to dolla shop wisely and in moderation.


peace hottie totties (oh and chicken grease...thanks to Jorge I have Ms. Peaches song in my head all weekend, "I got a pan and a plan, Imma cook this chicken in my hand.." or whatever is said....that's a damn shame someone could make a song about a chicken)
J.J.


random #8815 - I am not a fan of birds, I always get this feeling that while walking they will fly over me and decide to use me as target practice for poo...therefore if I see birds flying I try to avoid having them fly around me are over my head, and if they are sitting on a wire or pole I won't walk under it just case something might drop from the sky. If only birds could be as thoughtful as every other breathing object and poop on the ground I would be much more happier.

Is it Friday yet?

So I know I've been hiding out lately, just working...

wait that is a lie, I was on vacation last week so I sat around and
did nothing all day but watch court show like divorce court in my girly boxers..lol, enough of that talk, anyway... I kind of was able to enjoy my little week vacation but it could have been better but I was stress nonetheless as I have a lot of things going on in my life (but who doesn't). So anyway I am sad as I am still poor and broke and without my phone, I couldn't get it just yet because I had to pay for school, and thinking logically here, school always comes first. A sista needs that education. So I have to wait until the end of this week to get it shipped to me, good thing though, it will only take one day to arrive when it is sent. As soon as my baby comes, I'm gonna marry it, yes y'all it's a secret so don't tell my phone but I'm gonna propose to it that Monday morning when it comes. Oh yeah, you know my dvd player is gonna be hating, it already be bitching about how I don't stay at home since my sister and brother-in-law got the flat screen with the surround sound in the basement. That dvd player is always asking me question about where I been and why do I smell like air from loud ass speakers. I actually had to spend time with my dvd last week so it could quit nagging me, and it kept saying how it thought I was gonna watch V for Vendetta on it...I had to lie and tell it I would, as soon as I find some extra time since I have to worry about homework first...I couldn't tell it the truth that I watch V for Vendetta on the flat screen with the surround sound. But enough about my relationship problems with my dvd, we'll work through all that mess, now back to my phone though. Since I will be marrying my phone, we do take wedding gifts, like blue tooth headsets, blue tooth ear phones so I can listen to music, kodak memory cards for the digital camera on it, a cell phone holder will also do, since I lost it the first time cause I hadn't got around to going to the verizon store and picking one up. So yeah, for everyone who feels the need to pamper me and my phone then go ahead and treat us to a nice wedding gift.

So with that being said, back to last week with me getting everything for classes settled, I ended up taking a few courses online, that way I can still work out at the gym but I can still do my homework and not get home at 11:00 each night, as I can do my classes at home. Well because I will probably end up having to pay for school on my own, which really sucks as I could use some financial aid, regardless of if the school thinks I can afford to pay for classes, I can't damnit...too bad they don't see that though, damn those rules for who is in need, if I'm asking for the help then I must need it. But with that being said so I was meeting with the vp of student services because I was gonna discuss options on how I could pay for school, and I was all crying because ..1. I'm a very emotional person and sensitive..(can't really help that problem) and ..2.I was upset at the fact that I more than likely won't qualified for financial aid even though I clearly need it. This is like my first time meeting him...so let me explain him to y'all. So I'm sitting there waiting wondering who will come out the door to shake my hand. Out comes a short older chocolate man with a pretty smile, he look like Denzel Washington and a voice like Denzel Washington, I'm pretty sure Denzel is taller though he was like 5'6. Honestly it was strange being there, I might make up more problems in my life so I can schedule more meetings with him. He was so comforting and I felt silly cause I was so stress that day and emotional I'm in his office all crying but I'm not trying to cry in front of a stranger cause I'm not that type of person to open up to people like that, but the tears came regardless...needless to say, it was a good cry and I needed it and his relaxing Denzel voice help me out a lot...lol I was thinking that when they do a movie about my life, that scene will definitely be in the script, but I'll rewrite it a little different, like with a sex part on the conference table, and of course Denzel Washington would play him,...I gotta make myself look good in my own movie. As you guys can see I'm on a horny level 3 according to Leon's horniness levels (and that might be the reason why the vp of student service reminded me so much of Denzel), but check out Leon's blog it will keep you laughing...he just won best humor on the black web blog awards (so I thought I'd give my shout out)......Well enough of me being silly. Also it is less than a month till my nephew will be here, I'm excited, the baby shower is gonna be the 24th of this month, coed of course so I'm sure I'll have some funny stories to tell about that.Oh and another thing, we (me and my sister/roommate) have decided to start a halloween tradition, yeah...that's right we will be throwing a halloween party and of course my dears (in state and out of state) your invited if you'd like to attend, just let me know...but we require all to wear a costume. There of course will be food and drinks and good music and the good part for those with children it will be a child friendly party so your precious babies may join the party and enjoy it also along with you. But I must warn in my house I have whooping rights to all children, whether they are mines or not, if it is my house I'll use a belt if the babies act a fool..just a warning for those with mini me's running around. As for the par-tay... I keep y'all posted on the details...we plan on doing it way big... well... I gots work to do....so I'll have to use this as a stopping point but...

I do plan on finishing up this blog a little later, I got a lot to say still,

Oh but to finish it off...even though I'm stress my mood is a little better because since I've started working out on my goal to become smaller but still sexy Januari, I am now down to a size 12 from a 16...so I'm happy about that as I continue on my quest to be a little thin cause I've always been a chunky girl all through growing up so I'm excited to see me in a different way..plus for health reason it is only wiser to do so and I do want y'all to see yours truly at her finest,.... but not Starr Jones small that's like rat-dog type of small and for sure not Nicole Richie small that's like stick figure drawing type of small but me at a good healthy size...beside thighs run in my family so I'm probably gonna always have some thickness and thank God for that.

Until the next episode...

peace and big ups to the fat boys (y'all remember the fat boys right? my movie use to be Dis-orderlies ... man I can watch that movie over and over)

Jan the man - (not really a man but damnit... I gets the job done like a man and my uncle was the one who gave me that nickname.)

random fact ..525 - my favorite type of flowers are lavenders, I have never had anyone send me flowers yet :(... but I think if a person brought me some, the sweetest thing they could do is send me a bouquet full of lavenders.